Health!

After all of last post happened it was finally Monday and the school nurse was in! Still too weak to walk, I had Julian take me in a wheelchair to the UPMC. The streets here happen to be horrifying from that angle if you're wondering and almost being launched out of your chair by a curb with the knowledge that you would not be able to get up on your own is NOT GROOVY! But we get there and the doctor is baffled by me and can't figure out what I have. He called me back when my urine got back and there was nothing wrong with it. He called me when my blood was back and there was NOTHING WRONG WITH IT! And by that time I also had the hives so I was like screw it, I'm at my limit. It's Wednesday, it's Rosh Hashanah, I am getting better today. The nurse said if I had an I.V. for a little bit I'd be strong enough to take care of myself and get down to get my own food without almost blacking out. With that, I'd be able to get better from everything else with time so I went to the hospital by a cab the nurse had a voucher for and I had this cool driver from Ethiopia. He thought I was Muslim because I had my Rosh Hashanah babushka on and than when he told me he was from Ethiopia he was like, "do you even know where that is?" "Africa," I declared. After he saw his snideness had no effect on my shield of good humor he gave up. After having that I.V. for a little while I was feeling a lot better and I used the other cab voucher to get back and guess what? Another cool driver who happens to be a photographer and a graphic designer! We discussed my future and he was just uber chill. I was able to walk all the way to Dominos when I got back and I bought a thank you pizza for the people who helped me get food when I was too week to get it myself. I than proceeded to hang out with Ian and Kevin until one in the morning. I went back to my room feeling spunky and refreshed! I took a much needed shower and now, Thursday  I am doing my laundry and cleaning my room and than it's off to CVS to fill my prescriptions and get the nurse flowers. I have already, get this, FED MYSELF! I have a long day ahead of me though. While sick though, I did find a bunch of movies from my childhood on Netflix. Care-bears were so much cooler back then, I admit.

BLAH!

So... Not the best weekend ever. I lazed about on Friday, didn't really do much of anything. With that in mind i would have loved to have done something Saturday. I had breakfast with Kevin, Ian, Stacey and Kelcey and then went to check my mail. They didn't seem to want to do anything more with me so I was a little bummed but it seemed like they already had plans. I decided to make a nap my plans and I was actually really looking forward to that nap when I ran into another friend of mine who seemed to want to hang out. But like I said, I really wanted that nap and I tried to drop (not very subtle) hints that he should stop following me but I eventually had to tell him to go so I feel all bad. But I had a lovely nap. I actually fell asleep while Skype-ing my boy friend and I woke up and called him back and asked when I fell asleep. He told me two and a half hours ago which I thought was so funny except, well, Ian and Kevin did want to hang out with me after all. In fact, the wanted me to go to hookah with them and I've really been wanting to go because I used to go to hookah all the time back home. They called me to invite me and I slept threw it and I'm still pretty miffed. I guess it's a good thing that I missed it though because as it happens I came down with a fever that night. It was definitely in the top ten worst nights of sleep I've weathered (nothing beats the time I had water in Thailand). I kept having delusions that I was being attacked by spiders so I kept kicking and thrashing to kill them but they kept coming back!!! This delusion was probably brought on by the giant spider who lives outside my window. I had to watch him eat a bug the other day and it was mentally scarring. Now it's sunday and guess what? I'm not better! I went to go check my mail this morning and my vision went black and I couldn't see and the spots didn't go awhile for awhile and when you feel like you're going to faint nothing freaks you out quite like the elevators here. When I finally got to my floor I had to sit in my hallway for like five minutes to steady myself. Now I'm too afraid to leave bed. When I'm inactive I feel just fine, in fact I feel full of energy and ready to do a bunch of stuff. I still feel really hot and fever-y but I feel okay besides that. Props go out to my roomy though. Last night when I couldn't move she took my student I.D. to the cafe and used one of my meal exchanges to bring me back food that I was too weak to get myself. I'm so grateful. I'm just really BORED.

History of my day

History of my day:
1. I should do my history proposal
2. I will take a nap
3. I should do my history proposal
4. I will do my chores
5. I should do my history proposal
6. I will make Ian's cat collage
7. I should do my history proposal
8. I will deliver Ian's cat collage
9. I should do my history proposal
10. I will hang out with Ian, Kevin and Julian
11. I should do my history proposal
12. I will watch movies with Kevin and Alanna
13. I should do my history proposal
14. I will go on Skype
15. I should do my history proposal
16. I will take a shower
17. I should do my history proposal
18. I will make Katya's bear collage
19. I should do my history proposal
20. I will go to the Cafe
21. I should do my history proposal
22. I will go on my blog and write this list
I feel like there's something I need to do....

In Business

My animal collage business is up and running! So far I have designed a moose collage, a cat collage, a pig collage, a bear collage and a red panda collage and in doing so I have earned $6.05 and a twizzler. This may not seem like much but it's 2 Venoms or one Subway sandwich. Speaking of which, I'm pretty sure I got the Subway job. The owner seemed pretty much ready to hire me but they're family owned so he says he has to ask his wife first. It would be great to be making money but no one really ever WANTS to work, you know what I mean? For example, I should be writing my history proposal right now but... there's always tomorrow lol. Kevin and Ian are officially my besties now. I have been abducted two days in a row and both times it was them that wanted me to stay and both times they were sad to see me go plus also plus also, I am now in Kevin's Facebook profile picture which automatically means we're chums. It surprises me how well I seem to be doing lately. It doesn't feel like my life, I feel like I'm as much of the audience as my family is; just watching from the outside to see what will happen next. I don't get very homesick and I've been on Skype a lot less. I do still think of my boyfriend constantly and wish that I could Skype him as much as I used to but I would honestly rather hang out with people than depress myself by talking about how much we miss each other. I don't know if talking to him less is a good thing or a bad thing. On the one hand, if I talk to him less I will be less dependent, it will mean that I need him less, it will give me more time to really give this place a chance, it will mean I'm eating up less off his high school experience and it will make me less homesick. On the other hand, I don't want to grow apart, I like Skype-ing him, he's my only real connection to home because no one else Skype-s me anymore and I don't want him to feel replaced. I don't think he does though and I don't really worry about it much. I think we'll get threw this easily because I can't see anyone else any more. I can notice that someone is attractive but even if they're Leonardo DiCaprio there is no part of me that wants to be with them. I just don't see people that way any more and it doesn't mean I'm not keeping an open mind, I just don't and I've told him that and he says the same thing happened to him. We never fight for real. We'll honestly breeze threw this; I thought it would be a lot harder than it is. My family is sending me a care package and it's gonna be so beautiful. They sent me the books I miss and poptarts, equipment for my black and white film class, supplies for my collage making business and just sunshine and sparkles! I'm happy! Whenever I talk to my mom or even think about my mom it's like I'm still living with her. It doesn't feel like I'm not at all. I can obviously see that I physically moved all around me but on the inside I don't feel like I moved and it's great! It really keeps me from being homesick. Oh! I discovered the beauty of the Cafe! It has smoothies! Made to order smoothies! And now that I've told you... I think I need one lol.

Reality

It occurred to me after I wrote it that my last post actually didn't catch you up at all. Here is a nice list that will do the job better:
1. Stacey's roommate moved back in
2. Stacey in I hang all the time
3. My roommate's boyfriend was up and we have an agreement that on such an occasion she is entitled to an empty room over night so I slept over at Alanna's and Katie's and we watched Scott Pilgrim with Kevin
4. I applied at Subway. Fingers crossed.
5. I went to the Carnegie Museum of Art today. It was lovely, I would love to go back but it's only free if it's a school trip and I don't know if my Arts and Human Experience professor would send us there more than once. Maybe someday I'll get to see the Natural History Museum.
6. After Stacey's adventure with me to Oakland I went back and I really like it there. It feels more like a real life city whereas downtown where I live I think is meant to impress tourists but real people live in Oakland.
7. I found a Five Guys. I love them! So I nomed a fantastic burger and talked to my mommy and she might send me some photo stuff and maybe even poptarts!
8. I am a strong, independent, responsible woman who knows exactly what she's doing and she's doing it very well! Although she should probably start keeping track of how much she spends on books!
9. I figured our Flex Dollars (a school thingy they offer that you can use to buy stuff) and guess what? You can use them at Starbucks! So Kevin and I had the best hot chocolate ever! Also, you can use them in the cafe so sometimes now, when the mood strikes me, I strut on up to the Cafe and grab me a late night pop (that's what they call soda here, it's so silly) because the Cafe doesn't close until midnight or in between meals, unlike the cafeteria with it's wonky hours of service.
10. I found my bank and used an ATM and it was... convenient to learn to say the least.
11. I think you're caught up.

Creative Flow

May I start by saying that I have gone into business for myself! I am graphically creating collages of people favorite animal for a dollar (I'll raise it to two dollars once I'm well known). I've already made 2 and I've got another 2 customers on hold! That's four dollars! I can buy a Venom and still have a dollar left! I'm an artist! Now, second of all and more importantly I should like to discuss bed sheets. In college the character of a room and the person living within is defined by the bed sheets. My first roommate has a city scape with a wolf blanket, my second roommate has a lovely red tapestry. Now, I have a charming orange animal blanket with elephants and donkeys and doves and a very fluffy brown blanky but my bed sheets... My mother purchased me these pretentious, crisp, white bed sheets. She is a minimalist and looks very good in plain white herself BUT I AM AN ARTIST! MY BED SHEETS MUST HOLLER THE EXCELLENCE OF MY ARTISTIC FLOW! So I says to meself... perhaps I could customize them but oh no, my mum would hate that. That would be destroying them to her BUT THEN I SAYS TO MESELF! I says this, "Wait a moment, I'm an adult. These are the bed sheets of an adult. She has no twin bed and she shant be wanting them back! These are truly mine! The bed sheets of a grown up! And if I wanted to paint Monet's Water Lilies upon them to do so would affect only me and I have the right to." You see, it still hasn't fully registered to me that I'm an adult living on my own without parents. Sometimes I have to remind myself but these beautiful moments of clarity come at random intervals and I feel the most remarkable freedom. This was such a moment. So, I designed a wonderful swirl elephant on one side of my pillow case (in honor of my mother who loves elephants and inspired this moment of freedom) and on the other side I painted many swirls, peace signs, the earth, my hand print, my foot and a whole zoo of my favorite animals! Now, I bet you're wondering about my bed sheets. My favorite movie of all time is Peter Pan. The original cartoon by Disney has a special place in my heart and the book was fantastic BUT what I speak of is the live action film in 2003. That movie inspires me to tears every time I see it, I am not even kidding. I would marry that movie. I wish I were the movie photographer for that movie more than I wish to breath my next breath. I love every quote of that movie, every hollywood mistake. So, I watched it thoroughly, paint marker in hand, and wrote in a flowing cursive script all of my favorite quotes in chronological order upon my bed sheets. The end result is stunning! I am so happy and I know there is a chance my mum will read this and be most displeased with my choices to be impure but I love her and I believe, in the end, she's kind of inspired at the idea of having an artistic daughter. Something about it must, at the very least, spark her interest. You don't have to be an artist to appreciate one. I love you mom. Now if you'll excuse me, I have paint all over my face and I can't remember if I've gone to the bathroom at all today lol

Desperation Inventions

1. I used hot bath water to make tea
2. I invented honey mustard sause in the cafeteria
3. I used my oscillating to dry my clothes that can't go in the dryer (I'm currently quite proud of this system)
4. I made a band-aid out of tape and cotton ball
5. I cleaned a wound on my foot with hand sanitizer... I think that's ok

It's Gotta Get Bad Before It Gets Good

Yesterday was my 2 month anniversary (tuna-versary) so I skipped my last period class to come home, dry off from the rain, take a nap while watching movies on my laptop like it's a TV and then Skype my beautiful man. Now, before you hate me for skipping that class I actually dropped it today so it really doesn't matter. I don't need it for my major or to be a full time student, it's my only 3 hour class, it makes me have class until 6:30 on Thursdays which makes me miss every meal on Thursdays and it was just a bunch of field trips to places I didn't want to go soooooo by by class. The guy who runs the photography club told me the best thing a fellow photo major could do was drop it; who am I to argue with my superiors? After we skyped Stacey and I took the bus to Oakland to check out the Cathedral of Learning which is like Hogwarts on the inside. I love walking around other schools when I don't go there; I get this feeling of doing something sneaky and wrong but also knowing I can never be found out. I bet The Doctor feels that way always. It's starting to be Autumn outside and it's lovely. I used my blanket last night and I slept with my pillows on the wrong side of the bed so I can face by window. It was lovely. Anyway, after Oakland we went to the Gamer floor to see Ian and Kevin and we met some awesome folks like Ian 2 and Alanna and Katie (Who loves Pokemon!!! Yay!!!) and we watched video games, listened to soundtracks and told funny stories. Great night, I came home and fell asleep in my clothes. Then today, the beginning of the weekend I was trying to get a bunch of stuff done. I almost got a room change but it didn't work out, I did drop that class, I checked out this tutor session but eh, I didn't really need it I just thought it might be good to see it in case I ever do. Then Kevin and I got together to go on a photo adventure. I need to fill up a real of Black and White for my Black and White Photography class (we're starting dark room stuff) so we got some film, tried for ten minutes to open my camera, then once all set got started. I love my photos though, they are like my babies and I need to know that they'll come out and be ok which film doesn't guarantee so I took my digital too and took photos with both. Kevin took a lot too and showed me some cool stuff I didn't know. I'm so excited to develop! He's like my bff now and get this! Him and his girlfriend ARE EXACTLY LIKE ME AND MY BOYFRIEND! He started telling me about them and I was like holy cow dude, I am astounded. I feel like I should give him my boyfriend's Skype and they can be pals lol. Now, I'm in my warm home uploading my pictures to Facebook and Kevin better be doing the same because I loved his pictures of me. He's a boss.

Dizzy

I wasn't able to eat all day so I over ate tonight and now I'm mad dizzy. Anyway, my Arts and Human Experience Class is fantastic, I can honestly say this. My teacher (professor?), who is at least in his 30's, always has a new song in his head. I had Party Rock in my head for a week and now I have Super Bass because of him. Grrrrr. But, really interesting class. It's like a history of art class except we go on museum adventures and judge things. Black and White Photography could be cool, or really expensive. Whatever comes first hahaha. Yesterday I tried to make a few new friends with Stacey but they didn't top the ones from my last post. Kevin (what did I say I'd call him? Tex?) is like top of my bestie list but yesterday I met a Mister Julian and a Miss Jackie, nice people but not as fun. I now have higher expeditions but they are cool and my first day here I would have gone bananas over them lol. Today, Ian and I went to the comic book store I've been eyeing and I FOUND A DOCTOR WHO COMIC! I didn't know there was such a thing, I of course purchased it. I went in my SuperJew shirt so I was the toast of the town. I was asked why I was wearing my underpants under my pants lol. My beautiful friend back home gave me her Netflix info so I get to see Skins U.K. again. I love that show! I wonder what other glorious things I can find on there? Anyway, I'm still ecstatic about my new social life. I'm going to make Kevin and Ian go on a photo adventure with me later. Lalalalalalalalala

FINALLY!

Ok, I finally have fun stuff to post. I made four friends today! It's about time because I think I bruised my but from sitting so much so then I brought my laptop in bed and bruised my elbow from propping myself up that way for so long. It got so bad I was solving 25 by 25 nonograms and making post apocalyptic super heroins in Photoshop. So I was getting really bored with life, yeah? THEN!!!! I'm heading to lunch in the elevator and this girl gets on one floor below mine and she sees I'm heading to the third floor. She asks, "Are you going to the cafeteria?" and I respond with "Yeah." She asks, "Are you going to eat by yourself?" and I reply a shameful "Yeah." She then asks me if she may join me and I'm like absolutely! So we talk at lunch and her troubles ARE my troubles. She had trouble with her roommate so she now lives in a double room by herself, she has been having trouble making friends and like myself she has been getting a little desperate (aint no shame in that.) So she has been randomly approaching, sitting with, talking to and attacking strangers. Philosophy= when people don't fall in your lap you must jump in theirs. It was fantastic, we talked forever. She lives on the writer's floor which was my second choice and I live on the culture floor which was her second choice. She texts me to join her for dinner which I accidentally sleep threw so I text back, "I'm sorry, what are you doing now? I want an energy drink, wanna join?" So when we go to my favorite vending machine which has Venom we decide that we should throw ourselves on some more people in Thayer Hall (dorm building connected to ours by a sky bridge). Unfortunately the card keys that work to open the hall doors in our building don't work in Thayer so we have to wait for people to come threw and open doors. On the gamer floor we get lucky and we get in but we circle it four times before we have the courage to talk to anyone. It is then that we meet Ian. He is mad chill and invites us to go to Station Square which has a fountain light show. I LOVED IT! I like wanna go every night. While we're there his friends Kevin and Kevin meet up with him. The first Kevin is a little quieter but cool. I shall refer to him as Sevin, because I can. The second one is AMAZING! New best friend! I haven't used my actual personality in so long and I totally came out of my shell again and went back to being fun, silly, retarded me. He is Jewish, like me. He knows who Doctor Tran is. He is a cinematographer and claims to hate photographers but I'm like "We invented you!" and he's like "NO! WE CAME FROM HORSES!" But he takes mad pictures and he's a Canon and I told them I needed Hookah friends and they were like sure sure. I made them laugh a lot, I was really comfortable and in my element. And I don't think I'm sitting here being like "Oh, yeah we totally hit it off!" when in all actuality they hated me. I definitely think at least Jewish Kevin (who I will refer to as Tex because I can) had a good time with me and would not mind hanging out again. Next time though I plan to be dressed. I thought I was just going out for a Venom so I was in my Pajamas and I was icky so next time I will be awesome and I will make friends and it will rock. The End. By Me.

Long Weekend

Mckinley went away to D.C.. I didn't realize she was gone until a day later so I felt like a dunce. Because of Labor Day I have 4 days off, tomorrow is day 4. It's been pretty boring; I think I may have actually damaged my bum by sitting for so long. I think the extent of my moving, besides a few chores, has been rolling out of bed to sit at my desk. Now, don't think that means I haven't gotten anything done! I went to CVS and refilled my prescription (girly stuff), I go down for the occasional meal but I really should eat more. I'm allowed 2 meals a day but I tend to go down for one so I gotta stop that but their hours are weird so it's hard. I'm never hungry at breakfast time and they close too early for me to make it for dinner so I'm there for lunch. Anyway, I also did all my laundry (but my colors ran so now all my tie dye has more pink lol thank goodness I'm a hippie) and did a worksheet and I spent 6 hours making a picture of me and my boyfriend. The first 4 hours were me drawing it, the next 2 were scanning it in and finishing them in Photoshop. I love Photoshop, that is my favorite medium. I am a beast at graphic art when I get properly inspired (when I'm watching movies, movies inspire me in two seconds flat). I also hacked my boyfriends Facebook and put all his font in "Pirate" mode and once he realized it and put it back I sent it all upside down. Oh!! And then he was I.M.ing someone and I kept closing the chat box and I was on Skype with him at the time and saw him getting confused and frustrated and I asked, "Hey, does your chat box ever randomly close?" and he was like "Yeah!! That was just happening, it's not just me?" and I busted out laughing and he was like "Oh, you're mean!" I've watched a lot of School Rumble but after awhile when it stops being about Tenma and Harima and starts being about all these dumb secondary characters it's just a lot less awesome. I forced my boyfriend to watch Hercules, I watched Treasure Planet and some Doctor Who. It's the funniest thing; while they were having a hurricane back home I started season 4 of Doctor Who and I have a super nerdy Doctor Who fan at home who has seen everything and I called her freaking out. "ROSE! SHE WAS THERE, SHE WASN'T IN HER RESPECTIVE PARALLEL UNIVERSE!!?" and she was like, "I'm in the middle of a hurricane and you want me to set that aside to show fake enthusiasm for a decade old spoiler? Let me give that a go. Ah! Rose! What could this mean!?"  I got into some new music. You see, now that I live in a dorm my "Music Sharing" thing on Itunes picks up all these other accounts and I found the folder of this music snob I met and guess what? Apparently I am a music snob too because I loved everything in there and had a lot of it already. I used to just think I was alternative, or just a hippie. I don't like thinking of myself as a snob. Oh, and I opened my mailbox all by myself twice! That's a big deal because I always had a problem with combinations. I didn't use my locker threw 4 years of high school. One of my text books came in and i discovered I share my mailbox with someone named Abigail. I almost took her birthday card which is why I had to open the mailbox successfully twice. It's been really hot but since Mckinley isn't here Sara and I each have our own fans! Normally we have to try and make two fans work for 3 people and we all suffer. Of course, we're still suffering but in a more proactive way. I'm like obsessed with showering now. I'm not sure about my classes yet which is why I haven't talked about them. It's too soon to tell if they're awful but, of course, I am nervous. Some of them want me to buy things I don't have money for, some of them want me to walk to galleries and things that I don't know how to locate and on top of it all I've been having so much trouble focusing on anything outside of my dorm. What's an education besides an obstacle in my path and a pebble in my shoe? I know I need it and don't worry, I'll get it but I wont like it lol. I just want to take pictures, do I really need 4 more years of schooling for that? I'm sure I'm already exemplary. My high school photography teacher loved me and gave me awards and exhibits and opportunities and things because I was so good and then I got into Photoshop and everyone was impressed. I know I'm good and I'm not being vain because that is the only compliment you will ever hear me give myself. I suck at everything else, I hate my personality and appearance and maybe saying I'm not vain is also giving myself a compliment but than that's it. Those are the only two things I'll let myself have lol. I think I'll minor in graphic design or something so I can Photoshop. Maybe advertising? We'll see, or those of you who keep reading this will.